Same old, same old…Never in this house.

I think of a million things that I want to write about, or rant about.  Usually I am in the car driving, or I know that relatives will read it and worry that I have so much anger, rage or sadness, or whatever emotion happening at the time, that I opt to NOT post it.

Obviously, there’s been a lot of emotion going on since I haven’t blogged since Aug 24.  Then a few days ago I get a email from Sitelock, telling me that once AGAIN my freaking blog has been hacked.

Seriously…

I was told that if I updated my theme, or changed my “theme” and deleted the old one, it should help.  The old one was given to me so I couldn’t update it.  So I just found a freebie for now, that should be pretty new and uploaded it and deleted the old theme.  So, “Suck it Mr. Crab!”

I’ll find out if it fixed the malware later tonight…

Life is full of change here…

I am putting 3 of 6 of my kids in school.  Row is too young, Anya is a senior and is finishing as a home schooler, as much as she HATES that stereotype, and Kieran was TOO freaked out to make a change so quick, so he will remain home schooling, until…

Taylor is nervous…like NOT excited about the EARLY mornings and the normal fears, will he be liked?  Will he find his classes?  Will he do alright?  I know he will on ALL…eventually.  We will need a few bombs in his room to get him up for a while.  The boy can sleep!!  He will get lost a few times, but eventually find his way around. I know he will make friends, he is an amazing kid!

Lily is so very excited.  She came and told me that she is so excited for school.  Makes me so happy!  She will be great!

Maggs…she will be my flittering butterfly.  I know she will do well.  She is a ball of sunshine, yet very fragile.  Once she makes friends, they will be friends for life.  She will do well in school.  It will be intense for her, but she will succeed!

Rowan is in a MDO 2 days a week.  May put him in for 2 more, for a while.  So I can get some major, boarder-hoarder clean up going on.  11 years in this house, 6 kids 2 giant dogs, 2 cats and a messy creative husband and NO time for me to do anything about it, makes for a messy house!!  I can’t wait to tackle all the OLD stuff.  Throw in some knitting time!!  Oh yeah!  I will be good.

I may have a few hours at a time, with NO music blaring, well none of their droning music playing, or TODDLER hell music playing in my head over and over and over and over and over…I will actually be able to hear and converse with the conversations going on in my head!

The next few weeks will be a huge transition.  So give us a little prayer as we adjust…you know, like I don’t kill them in the mornings…when they won’t get up and be ready in time…I’m not exactly a morning person either.

Another added bonus, I can focus on some writing with Tom and Don, and Marcia, and Liz and some other amazing peeps that I haven’t written with in a while, a long while, except for my husband, we just wrote an amazing song last week!!

Plus my amazing husband has been kickin’ it on my cd, and in the very small amount of time he has, has been working on it.  May be done by Christmas?

Then we have some amazing plans.  We are writing some killer stuff…But that is for another post down the road…

That is my update.  I hope to post a little more often, maybe post some pics of the hoarding episodes going on in my house…

Who knows?

 

Is it beginning to look, sound, feel a lot like Christmas?

This has been a strange time of year for me.  Is it just me or does it NOT feel like Christmas to you?

Yes, Anya put the tree up over 3 weeks ago, but that is it…and not even all the ornaments are on the tree.  I look for certain ones to go down memory lane and they are NOT there!!  Plus the bottom 3 feet of the tree are nothing but lights and messy garland!  Rowan proof…

We used to go to a Christmas tree farm and cut a tree…yes it’s messy, and needles everywhere, so we bought a fake tree, but I miss that tradition…  

I think I will talk to Tom and make a plan to take the kids out to cut a tree down that we can put on our front porch.

We have NO other decorations or lights anywhere!  No outside lights, no tree in the basement, no holiday music blaring.  Nothing.  No shopping done…(Not a great loss, I just get totally irritated with people this time of the year anyway!)

No planning for the big day, Christmas Day that is.  Diana did talk to Carrabba’s about our HUGE Christmas Eve dinner.  To be honest, I am overwhelmed with that as well…I can see that I don’t look forward to a whole lot with the wild one.  I know that sounds lousy.  I know he will be good for a while.  And will sit in his high chair for a while.  I also know we are looking at almost 50 people now!  He gets overwhelmed in a crowd.  Somehow I need to let go of the anticipation of it all.

Then the day after Christmas, The Pem’s and the Graves’ and the Harden’s are caravanning to Florida for a HUGE loud fun Vacation!

After my weekend with the wild one, I worry about that too!  Will he be safe, will we survive, will I get any sleep?  FYI…He broke the zipper on the Crib Tent the 1st morning.  We fixed it, next morning, broken again.  So I spent 50.00 for nothing…I can’t return it now.  Broken zipper...

This weekend, I was so exhausted with the wild one, that I had decided that he and I would stay home from the HUGE vacation.  So that all the others can enjoy the vacation, and I can at least be in a semi safe environment!  I know  sound like Debbie Downer, but I am a realist, that has a real active, strong willed, oversensitive, OCD little man.   (No, I am not staying home, I am going, but that was my weekend!)

I have no desire to put any more lights up, no desire to decorate the house anymore than it is, it will just be a war of wills.  He will want to constantly touch and I will constantly be punishing.  I don’t want to do that.  So this will be my Christmas memory of 2010.  Different.

I am not a “Bah Humbug”, I just want to be at peace.  My kids aren’t complaining, so that is good.  We are not even doing a Christmas Party this year.  I am invited to a few, so I will enjoy someone else’s party, as long as I have the wild one at home.

A lot of commercial, radio Christmas music…not really into that either.  I have been listening to the music that Tommy made years ago.  Maybe because it is because it takes me back to that time of recording…A labor of love, 6 months of his life.  Listening to my children singing, and sounding like children and not teens!  Sussex Carol // Celtic Carols CD

Listening to my amazing friends singing as well. Silent Night // Peaceful Carols CD // Sung by Diana Pemelton It is soothing to my soul!  It refreshes me.  I can see that is what I need right now, not the seasonal hoopla all around!  O Come, O Come Emmanuel // Peaceful Carols CD // Lorrie Harden

We have written several Christmas songs this year…I love them!  They have been demo’ed, nothing professional, but I will share some with you.  Just A Little While Longer // Written by Tommy Harden //Sung by Lorrie Harden Only one has been recorded and it is fantastic!!!  The Lights Of Christmas // Days of December CD // Lisa Hentrich

So, please forgive if I am not all wild and jingly.  I know what I need this year.

Peace…

Oh, and I hope you enjoyed my little Christmas concert!!  Thanks for listening!!

What does your holiday season feel like this year?

Running like a Chicken with my head cut off…

Quite an expression…Yes, I know, but that is where I am right now…

I feel like ever since I got home from San Antonio, and the “2010 Flood”,  I just can’t seem to get a grip, catch up, relax, and just be.

My house is never clean…like I would like it to be…kids really just want to do nothing this summer…not even morning chores!  Kieran has play practice 4 nights a week…Anya still has youth group stuff every Wednesday night, birthday parties, sleep overs, Taylor is at Robotics camp all week…8-3!  (I’ll detail that in another blog post…), Rowan is…well Rowan.  Tom hurt his back…Anya still taking 2 classes this summer, one to get ready for ACT’s in August.  Anya wants to get her license tomorrow!  Anya turns 16 tomorrow!  I am not really sleeping.  Busy, busy, busy!  There is so much more, but I don’t have time to write it!!  I have an appt!  So I’ve got to go!

So, I am praying about life, our family life, peace and rest and joy.  Not sure of what I want the outcome to be…just peace, rest and joy!!  I am asking that you join me in this…

:)