Breaking up is hard to do…


Breaking up is hard to do…
Ahhh, Neil Sedaka…I remember this song when I was a kid…which has nothing to do with this post…but I’ve got to give love for the song…
This is about relationships… but it is NOT about romance, it is about friendship.
From a VERY young age, friendships come and go.
Last year, one of Maggie’s dear friends moved away…She was 5 and her little friend moved away.  It has been hard on her many months later…she will sometimes cry…”I miss Elizabeth!”  It is so tragic…for a 6 year old to lose a friend,  for any of us for that matter.
Quite some time ago, I had someone in my life that I had to walk away from, and it was very traumatic for them.  I couldn’t look back, it was way too much of a dysfunctional friendship.  It wasn’t easy for me, not easy, at all,  for them!

We all have friends that we have known since elementary school, middle school,  high school, or as adults and over time, some of these relationships, friendships grow apart…we have different interests, different classes, different friends, different churches, sports, schools, job, someone moves.
We drift, and usually with drifting…we don’t drift together.         
There is no rhyme or reason to this…usually no one is at fault…some times only one person drifts and the other has no idea what is going on.
It is not an easy situation for either party.  It is painful, it is confusing at times, it is part of life. 
As painful as it is, it is a part of life.
So I pose a few questions on this…         
Have you ever been in this situation as the one who is drifting away?  How do you deal with this?
Do you attempt to tell the other party?  Do you just move forward?  Do you run and hide?  Just ignore the whole thing and hope you don’t see them again?
You know they are hurting, but walking back into the relationship is not always the best thing.
So, what do you do?
If you are the person left behind and confused, what is it that you want the drifter to do, other then drift back.. it might be too late for that…
Do you want an explanation? Would it help with the pain or hurt more?
How do you know it’s time to move on?
I would love to hear your feedback on this one…

I forgot how much I love to sing!

I forgot how much I love to sing.  Sounds crazy doesn’t it?

Yes, I have been blessed to have my family and still be able to have moments of creativity.  Song writing,  then doing the vocals on a lot of the female demo’s.   As far as live singing…not so much.  We have done a few writers nights over the past few years,  only one this past fall.

Writing and singing, it’s all part of my plan to continue to take care of me.

Friday night, Tom and I did a 45 minute set of our music.  We had a blast.  It was a horrible night to be out, to go out to listen to music…Rain, tornado warnings…but fortunately it wasn’t bad in our area at all!  Much to our surprise, there were a lot of people there.

Our good friends, Mike Severs, and Mark Prentice and Matt Bubel joined in and played for us.  Tom played acoustic, as Matt sat in and played drums.  Mike played electric and Mark played bass.  Jennifer Hinchliffe came up and sang our duet, Sleeping with the Telephone with me.  We were good, really good!

Tom was amazing, sang his heart out,  he is an amazing singer!  He was quite the wonderful MC…such a ham on stage, always has been.

Which is so NOT him!  It was good to let the rest of the world see how amazing he really is, other then drums of course.

We were asked to do it again, we were asked if we perform any where else, Yes we are going to do it again, no don’t sing anywhere else, yet…I can see Tom’s wheels spinning after this…

Anyway, we will be at the Red Tree again on May 20th!

I may be too old and not quite hip enough to sing at church at the Nashville Campus, (We go to a very hip and trendy church, It has been voted most hip church in Nashville by the Nashville Scene!)  but we brought the house down Friday night at the Red Tree!  It was fantastic!  I am definitely looking forward to doing it again soon.

Being a mom is very difficult! We FORGET about us…So many times we are not on the bottom of the list, we don’t even put ourselves on the list.

So I have to ask, as  I am always trying to remind myself of this.   What are you doing to “take care of you” today?

 

I’m not blogging…why?

I find myself NOT blogging very much anymore.

I could use the excuse of my children, busy life, home school, husband busy, I’ve actually been writing a few songs lately, running endless errands…like oh, we are out of milk again…no I mean we are out of milk again, and I have to run to the store in the morning!  BTW, have you seen the price of milk???  Went from 2.78 a gal, just last week, to 3.06 2 days ago!!  What???!!!  I am NOT having my kids drink as much milk…but I haven’t weened them off completely…CRAP food is expensive now!!…

OK back to no blogging excuses…I have to run to the union and pick up some money, drop of one of my kids at a play date or sleepover, go meet a friend for lunch, my list is LONG.  But those are NOT the reasons…

This is why I find myself NOT blogging…

I have convinced myself that to take the time to write the blog, find pics to use, post them in place, attempt to correct my errors, make sure my post is right, takes TOO long.  My mind says, you don’t have time to do all of that it will be several hours…So many ideas fly in and fly right back out…sabotage, self sabotage!!  STUPID!

I read plenty of blogs where they aren’t perfect, there are NO pretty pictures to go with the post, it is just a good, raw, passionate, or not so passionate, maybe funny maybe not, post.  I love them…just as much as the pretty picture perfect posts.  Why the heck am I NOT just posting what is on my heart, mind, chest, when I am happy, sad, or extremely angry…

I want to say it. I hold back.  What will people think?  What will my parents think? (yea, I know, How old am I?) haha!  Will I make someone mad?  Why do I care?  I don’t even know if that someone is even reading this. haha!

So, I am going to force myself to get over this sabotage of self and post.  It may not have all the pictures and be perfect, but really?   I am a mom of 6 that home schools and is a songwriter.  I have 2 teenagers and inbetweens and of course The Rowan Factor! (That right there should score me some major grace points!!) but I will really try to post, to get me back out there.  It is very cathartic and I miss it.  I might piss a few people off, or make them laugh and that is alright. I am doing this for me.  I don’t do much for me, so this I will get back to, because I enjoy it!

 

Lifelong Friends…a true blessing.

Even at spring break it's not terribly crowded!

Tom at the beach...

 

Last week Tom and I were in Florida for a little break. We stayed with my parents, their house is conveniently located very close to the beach. It was short notice and they graciously let us invade their house.   We knew that my parents had friends that were down for the month of March, and we would stay out of their way. (which of course we didn’t have to)

Tom and Christy in the pool

The New Pool!

Their friends were staying in a house one street down, so staying with my parents was not a problem.

 

We were finally able to meet my father’s “infamous” life long friends, or a few of them.

Bobby showing Tom a site on the computer

 

Mom and Anna having a chat

50th anniversary party

Christy and Carol

50th anniversary party

Mom and Christy at the pool

 

 

Here is the history:

Many years ago, my father grew up in this magical, mystical town, Morristown NJ, and had friends from all different races and ethnicities.  Now mind you, it was the late 40’s and 50’s.  He graduated in 1957.   Seriously…the 40’s and 50’s!  Prejudice and discrimination was never a part of his vocabulary.  He taught us well!  Amazing!

Growing up, I heard stories, many funny stories, of all of his friends,  but it wasn’t until after I had graduated and married that my father really began to keep in much closer touch with his “forever friends”.  He never missed a class reunion, but as the years went by, too much time would pass between reunions, and they began calling each other.  They began to have get-togethers

I never really got the whole “why”  they decided to spend more time together, as I was knee deep in children, babies and toddlers…

Over the years, they would make bigger plans and spend a week or 2 with each other.  Now, I get this, as I have my girlfriends that I have my week long getaways, and dinners and weekend getaways with my “BFF’s”.    These are necessary trips for us!!

Until this last week,I had never met my parent’s friends,  I was finally able to meet a few of the “gang”

Let me tell you, I was not disappointed…

50th anniversary party

Mom and Dad

I met Bobby, the Pagano’s (they left the day after we got there), Carol, and I met Anna.  We were invited to their cocktail parties, and a BBQ, and an amazing dinner they had for my parent’s 50th anniversary.  (That is another blog post…50 years!)

It was wonderful.

Bobby and Dad cooking

Bobby and Dad discussing sauce

It was quite an experience to watch my dad and Bobby, who he has known since preschool, and Anna and Carol.  Here they are in their early 70’s, we watched them banter and bicker and laugh and love. You could tell that they have known each other forever.  They are so comfortable with each other that they banter/bicker like siblings, and no one is offended, they love to laugh and they love to love each other.  They have included my mom in their world, which is an added gift.   I had moments, watching them, that I couldn’t help but see Anya and Cooper and Lane in 50 plus years!

Kids at a party

Cooper and Anya

Lane, Anya and Cooper

It made me laugh.  It all brought me joy.  I loved watching this amazing relationship between these adults.  I am so very glad that I finally met all of these wonderful people, and that my mom and dad are blessed to have such good friends in their life.

It showed me once again, the preciousness and blessing of friendship.  I am blessed with my friends and it blesses me to see my children have the beginnings of their life long friends, and to see my parents enjoying their retirement years, enjoying life  and sharing life with their lifelong friends.

It is really what life is all about…family and friends.

Praying for Japan. Give them a Hug from Me…song for Earthquake Victims

Last night I got up about 2 am to get a drink of water, as I was filling my glass, my 6 year old, Maggs, came out. She was frightened by a nightmare about a sea monster that was going to get everyone. I calmed her, tried to make the sea monster funny, prayed for her and put her back to bed. In trying to fall back asleep I went online and I read all about the terrible 8.9 magnitude earthquake in Japan. I was able to stream coverage, as we have no TV…The images were horrible.

Photo credit: http://punditpress.blogspot.com/2011/03/pictures-of-japanese-earthquake-march.html

Photo credit: http://www.buzzfeed.com/mjs538/the-most-incredible-pictures-of-the-japan-earthqua

I saw footage of the tsunami with what they said had a 30 foot plus wall of water! It was devistating All of a sudden Maggie’s nightmare creeped me out. She NEVER has nightmares about sea monsters! That is QUITE A SEA MONSTER!
I was up until 2:45 am, streaming and tweeting with @Laurynhewett, who is on vacation in Hawaii as she was listening to the Tsunami sirens going off.
She is safe…

My heart is broken for all of the people and their families and friends…all over the world. I am praying.

I am so thankful for Twitter!

So thankful that it connects our world, instantly connects us! I was able to tweet and get great local info from Hawaii, because of @AMauiblog. So thankful she is alright as well. I’ve never met her… Twitter connected us…

Tom and Reba and I wrote this song for the people that were in the Haiti Earthquake…The year anniversary was not too long ago…

It’s still relevant to what’s going right now.

Give Them A Hug

GIVE THEM A HUG FROM ME

I SAW IT AT THE Y, LAST TEN MINUTES ON THE BIKE
THE NEWS BROKE IN, THE PICTURES WERE DEVISTATING
A MAGNITUDE OF 6.8, THE TEARS AND THE SHOCK ON THEIR FACES
WERE HARD TO WATCH AS MY JAW JUST DROPPED

I FELT STUNNED I FELT HELPLESS

LATER ON THAT AFTERNOON MY BOY SAM CAME HOME AFTER SCHOOL
HE SAID “MOM DID YOU HEAR?”
THEN CAME THE HOW’S AND THE WHYS
THE I DON’T UNDERSTANDS AND THE WISH I COULD ANSWER
YOUS, CAUSE THESE ARE MY QUESTIONS TOO

THAT NIGHT I OVERHEARD AS HE WENT TO BED
HE PRAYED THESE WORDS

GOD MY HEART IS OPEN I’M HERE FOR YOU TO USE
SO MANY LIVES ARE BROKEN SHOW ME WHAT I CAN DO
CALM THEIR FEARS AND GIVE THEM PEACE
GIVE THEM EVERYTHING THEY NEED
JUST ONE MORE THING
GIVE THEM A HUG FROM ME

ON SATURDAY HE WAS UP AT 6
RAN OUT THE DOOR, AS HE BLEW MOM A KISS
HE’D BEEN TEXTING FRIENDS AND THEY HAD A PLAN
WHAT STARTED DOOR TO DOOR, GREW INTO SO MUCH MORE

SOON THE SCHOOL THE CHURCH AND THE TOWN GOT INVOLVED
THEN THE NEWSPAPER CALLED

WHEN THE LAST BOX WAS LOADED ON THE TRUCK
THEY HAD SAM SAY A PRAYER TO SEND IT OFF

GOD OUR HEARTS ARE OPEN WE’RE HERE FOR YOU TO USE
SO MANY LIVES ARE BROKEN SHOW US WHAT WE CAN DO
CALM THEIR FEARS AND GIVE THEM PEACE
GIVE THEM EVERYTHING THEY NEED
JUST ONE MORE THING
GIVE THEM A HUG FROM ME

I THOUGHT THAT NIGHT AS I LAY DOWN
ABOUT MY LITTLE BOY THAT INSPIRED THE TOWN
PULLED THE COVERS OFF OF ME, AND GOT DOWN MY KNEES

GOD MY HEART IS OPEN I’M HERE FOR YOU TO USE
SO MANY LIVES ARE BROKEN SHOW ME WHAT I CAN DO
CALM THEIR FEARS AND GIVE THEM PEACE
GIVE THEM EVERYTHING THEY NEED
JUST ONE MORE THING
GIVE THEM A HUG FROM ME